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Name: S h a r o n
Country: Canada
State: Ontario
Gender: Female
Interests: Music. Playin piano, alto sax, guitar, drums. Reading. Playing basketball. Drama class. Watching movies. Thinking about making movies. Singing. Reading my Bible. Praying and spending time with God. Jazz. Swing. History. Native Americans. Irish and Ireland. Friends & Family. I guess you can say I'm very sentimental.
Expertise: Making faces, especially with my eyebrows and elvis lip. Laughing. Listening. Observing. Teaching. Talking.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  lilbskballgurl
MSN: carterrocks@hotmail.com
Yahoo:  basketball_rule_z@yahoo.ca
Member Since:
9/18/2004
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| Will You Be There ?Hold Me
Like The River Jordan
And I Will Then Say To Thee
You Are My Friend
Carry Me
Like You Are My Brother
Love Me Like A Mother
Would You Be There?
Weary
Tell Me Will You Hold Me
When Wrong, Will You Scold Me
When Lost Will You Find Me?
But They Told Me
A Man Should Be Faithful
And Walk When Not Able
And Fight Till The End
But I'm Only Human
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| heal the world.yay, i just fixed my Course Timetable for September  i'm exciiiiiiiiiited & i just can't hiiiiiiiide it. sorta.  . i had to drop one course that had a Margaret Atwood book in it... :)
uhm, i'm kinda trying to see the Positive in things these days.
my mom came home from work and wanted to see the Memorial service online so I sort of watched it twice. my older sister had said she didn't want to watch any of it cuz she can't take crying anymore... but then she came downstairs while they were playing HEAL THE WORLD.. and she started tearing up... and my mom who was already crying , cried even harder. And i thought i was done crying, but apparently i wasn't because i broke down. my poor dad. he didn't know what to do. we were all crying around him...
but, what gave me hope is something that my mom said ... someone like MJ couldn't have loved people so much without the Love of God within him... that gives me hope... i really hope that he's in heaven.
There's a place in your heart and I know that it is Love. And this place could be Much Brighter than Tomorrow.
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| perfect enoughI set up a Savings account today :) & I'm so proud of myself.
I didn't think I would be able to watch the memorial service today but I caught the ending online & then saw some of the recaps. Hearing Paris talk about her dead was heart-breaking and now my head kind of hurts from all the crying that I really honestly thought I wouldn't be capable of anymore. But what do you know, there were tears left to let out.
In a conceited sense it was almost perfect, since they sang Heal the World, played Man in the Mirror, and featured Who's Loving You, my personal favourite ... & Smile... but it wasn't the same without Michael.
It's about time to accept it though. Michael is gone ... I truly hope that he's with the Lord.
God Bless You, Mike.
On other matters, I really need to study for my G1... I'm about done just 2/5 of my review so excusez-moi.
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| SmileSmile though your heart is aching
Smile even though its breaking
When there are clouds in the sky, youll get by
If you smile through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
Youll see the sun come shining through for you
Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
Thats the time you must keep on trying
Smile, whats the use of crying?
Youll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile
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| MJit's been - what ? a week, right ? i still find myself in mourning. i don't cry as much anymore though. i've just been in the remembering mood.
the thursday i found out, i was at a pool party. someone came with the news and i screamed a very shrilling "Nooooooo" that people were annoyed by, i could tell. sorry, guys.
a couple of days passed, and little by little, i would remember that he's gone.
i haven't had cable or any tv channels since September, so unlike everyone else who was bombarded with the News & interviews & replays of videos & songs... i wasn't. haha, i was pretty much secluded. it wasn't until i finally got my turn on the Computer With Speakers, that it finally fully hit me. i think i was listening to some songs...starting with his cover of Who's Lovin You... cuz that was something i was trying to perfect the whole month... lol, to HOLD MY HAND with Akon... and hearing him sing "This life don't last forever" made me cry. It was just the fact that it was his voice singing that & the reality of it. Man in the Mirror made me cry even more.
it was a couple of days after when i visited my workplace and Theresa was there. i haven't seen her in a couple of weeks, and she looked at me sadly and told me the same news. she said she had called in to work the day she found out, just to check if i was okay. that kinda got to me...nobody's ever really done that before. she said she thought i broke down or something cuz she knew how much I loved MJ...
I think I actually REALLY broke down that night.
I didn't really sleep that night. I think I fell asleep at 4am and my mom woke me up at 630am to do some chores... so I forced myself to get up... I was doing laundry, singing Man in the Mirror, when I started bawling. I don't know what was going on. My heart felt Sooo Soo heavy and just torn... My mom thought it was because I'm lazy and didn't wanna do the laundry... She didn't believe me at my first when I said that I'm crying for Michael Jackson.
Her words were ... "Would you cry for a criminal?"
And I said , choking up, "Yesss, WhY NOT. God loves them too!"
Oh man, my little sister was looking at me weird, my dad just gave me a look and then looked at my mom. I turned away and kept doing the laundry. I cried a few more times after that. I had work afterwards and upon coming home, to my surprise, i found my mom and my older sister crying about him. what a moment.
Looking back on that moment, I find it kind of interesting with the way I reacted. I didn't know him personally. Why was I crying?
I just felt like the world truly did lose somethin special. Also the fact that the way he left, at 50, with unsettled personal things in his life.. I don't know. It seemed so...unfair, almost.
I believed he had a good soul, and had a heart for people. And vitiligo wasn't an easy thing to go through but people didn't believe it. Just the fact that he had to suffer through all of that, the injustice moved me, I guess. And not knowing if he went to heaven or hell.
I guess I'm also sad that I didn't get an MJ Ultimate Collection from HMV when it was on sale a few months ago... and now the prices have probably gone up.
At least I learned more things we have in common that I could love more about him - love for children, Peter Pan <3. , Music, Poetry... and... F I L M.
mmm i'm tired.
my brain is no longer working properly. i'll add more or make a new post if i remember.
Goodnight.
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